Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Just lately...

Sometimes, I am my own worst enemy. I never could really find a perfect balance between everything.. it's really frustrating actually. Sometimes, I think I believe that I am capable to take on many things regarding my future... whether it was taking as many classes as I can, taking up 3 internships, and following up on my academic goals... I sometimes even wonder if i'm able to do everything in my best ability. Recently, I've also been considering taking on another major. Am I underestimating everything? I sometimes feel like I can and will do everything the best I can, but i'm so damn scared to fail. Fail in my expectations, fail myself...

Getting sick on the first week of school doesn't comfort me either. Working SO hard, staying SUPER busy, trying my best to stay on top of everything has so many setbacks too. I'm starting to question whether or not I can even accomplish my goals. Sigh.. being sick sucks. It forces you to stay in bed and rest, while your eyes are burning, your nose is flooding, and your whole body feels cold and sore, but in reality, you're burning like hell. I guess it is a good thing though... being sick helps me reflect how i'm physically feeling. BURNED OUT. All this for graduation, all this for my dream job, all this for a stable income, all this for strength, all this for success. I need to press on no matter how stressed and tired I feel. I need to make the most out of everyday as much as I can, but... I know i'm not superwoman either. I need to know when too much is too much. I need to listen to what my body is telling me, and right now- it's telling me to stop blogging and pop a cold flu pill and knock out. 6 hours rest until school starts all over again, and the stress repeats. aslkdfazmnc.,z.jefialkd. alright, venting done, time to sleep now.

4 comments:

Stayseated! said...

Don't want to tell you this, but I told you so- seeing your whole schedule... I don't even know where you take the time to relax and do absolutely nothing (which I'm not gonna lie, I indulge in :P) But then again, why take advice from a person who's taking an extra year at school, nowhere near an internship/finishing my portfolio. HAH! Sorry for being a negative Nancy. :/

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NEO said...

Girl , where are you , keep us updated , its been a really a long time since your last post !

Miss reading your post !

hope your doing well!