Thursday, April 12, 2012

Dear Dad,

It's your daughter, Megan... how have you been up there in Heaven? Are you doing okay with grandma and grandpa? I miss you.... so much.. I went to visit you last weekend on Easter. It was sunny and warm that day while Connie and I had lunch with you that day. Do you remember? Dad, I just wanted to tell you how hard I've been trying to put on a strong face everyday... I try to think positive thoughts and I still try to believe you are still here.. checking your emails in Taiwan and keeping busy with work... I know it's not right for me to still think you're here but I miss you. I miss you emailing me and asking me how school is, I miss you calling me just to see if I was okay, I miss you calling me every year to wish me a happy birthday, I miss you lecturing me about my future and making sure I was always positive about my goals, I miss you telling me how many army friends you have if any boy tries to break my heart, I miss you asking me what i wanted for my birthday and me telling you the best present I can ever have is for you to just take good care of yourself, I miss visiting you every summer just to sit around and see what you're doing at work, I miss you telling me to try to be more active and take good care of my health.... I miss hearing your supportive words and helpful advice, I miss telling you my lame jokes and seeing you still laugh at them, most importantly, I just miss you Dad. I can't help but think of the day I might get married, walking down the isle without you by my side........ I know I still have many many maaaaany years ahead of me before I even think about marrying the guy I love but all I know is that it won't be the same without you there... sigh, I'm sorry for holding everything in until I just break apart... I know it's a flaw of mine. I'm trying my best to work on it... but I just wanted to let you know that no matter what Dad, no one will ever EVER replace you.. You will never be forgotten. In the future, when I have lived a full life, hopefully living by the age of 80 to tell my future children and grandchildren all about your stories. So they know how much of a wonderful father you have been in my life, and that I will always love and cherish you. Dad, please give me the strength again to get through days like this where i'm missing you terribly... I still wish you were here. But, I know you're living a much better and happier life up there in the Clouds... Don't forget to say hi to grandma and grandpa for me, don't forget to give them lots of kisses and hugs from me and Connie.. sigh* I Love you Dad.... and I will always miss you.. One day, much later in the future, I can't wait to reunite up there with you... but in the meantime, I know you'll always be watching over me and protecting me, like my guardian angel. I Love you Dad. <3

Love your daughter,